My super awesome cousin came to visit for 2 weeks before starting her first year at UC Irvine in the fall, so for the first time ever, we got to go out constantly and hang out at places we normally wouldn't! Our aunt is getting married in October, so we went dress browsing at a bunch of different places, though my favorite has to be Windsor (both at the Santa Anita and West Covina malls).
I also introduced her to an awesome buddy of mine, and they got along great. We're planning to do a lot more hangouts with her and my regular hangout group when she's on break. We went to Koreatown for some KBBQ at Ma Dang Sae (I recommend it!) and attempted to head up Angeles Crest, but we kind of got lost (we couldn't find the place). Lastly, today we went to the cheap theater (Academy 6) in Pasadena and watched Kung Fu Panda 2 with my sister. I can't wait for the 3rd one to come out (it better!) But it was fun! I'm definitely going to miss her since she's leaving for home tomorrow, but I'm glad that I got to see her before she
goes off on her own into the wide world.
On another note, these past two weeks have been really stressful for me in terms of my current relationship with a really special person. There's too much background story and personal information to go into detail, but let's just say it seems like my relationship is ending before it really got started. I got my feelings hurt a lot last week, and again yesterday, and it seems like a constant stream of emotional stress is being poured onto my head without me being able to do anything about it. Admittedly, the other person is also under a lot of stress from a different reason, but that doesn't make it okay to take it out on me, right?I don't mind listening to people rant/vent, as in talking TO me, but not when I'm getting ranted/vented AT. Just when I feel like I'm closer to getting over it, I get knocked back down again.
I know that there were times when I probably should've tried to pay more attention to how I behaved, but I tried my best to help them when they needed me. For example, I rushed over to their place when I got a drunken text because I was really worried and I felt bad for being preoccupied with my cousin, and when I got there, all I got in return was a series of drunken insults and laughs at my expense. After that, I had a really long talk and I thought we worked things out, but a similar thing happened yesterday. It makes me wonder whether I should just stop trying.
It hurts because I really care about this person, SO much.
So I guess I'll just have to be like Po from Kung Fu Panda 2 and try to find some inner peace. Wish me luck!
PS: Super sorry for the ridiculously long post. I just really needed to get it off my chest.
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